I had a really interesting reading today, in which all cards were right side up and i got both Yin 陰 and Yang 陽! I like to use oracle cards and read them both intuitively and also with the booklet. I will use use the instructional meaning for the right side up version and then intuitively read the reversal, since most oracle decks, including this one, do not come with reversal meanings … in fact, None of the ones i own have a “reversal” meaning, not even Visionary Tarot which is kinda like tarot but a little different. This deck, Wisdom of the Oracle Divination Cards, does come with a massive and very descriptive instructional booklet though 😀 . So far i have ignored the entire introduction and just looked up a few meanings while i read with random spreads. I have been using familiar spreads as often as my own spreads lately, and i will write another post about “creating” your own spreads: more like thinking “hey i want this card in this position to mean this” and then shuffling and laying them out that way … it really is that easy.

Here is my collage of the main Daily reading in the center with some additional celtic crosses read from the bottom of the deck or “shadow side” as some online sources call it. ( i am currently working on a post about my customized spreads … …. and collecting photos for them 🙂 … preview notes: i like to ask yes or no questions even though it is highly discouraged among most readers … it really depends on What you are asking yes/no for, if it is “appropriate” and whether or not the spirits actually Want to give you an answer … if they Don’t want to answer, then they say Both yes & no, which has happened to me)

…..image taken down because i do not have permission to post images of the Wisdom of the Oracle Deck……

Allow, Feel, Know and then Act and Create

I keep going around in circles because I have unfinished business to attend to. Now is a time of regeneration, to revive and rebuild my unfinished symphonies. Be receptive of what comes, allowing information and events to flow into my life, and then act upon them.

Right now is a time of acceptance, so let the tension go, and soon I will be receiving help. In the distant past I was happy, then i went through some difficulty accepting a message. In the future I will deal with feelings of being lost and alone. An issue that I should be dealing with is my conflicted feelings surrounding exchanging gifts equitably. Now am not following the lead of others and also not mending wounds that need to be healed, i am worried about a lack of reward but all my hard work but I am headed towards a mother load of Treasure and pay off!

Personal Notes
I have issues with feeling taken advantage of, Really being taken advantage of, trying really hard to make clients happy with my ventures, only to face a bunch of hagglers who want to pay me less than minimum wage and don’t even consider the fact that i have to pay my bills and manage all this time i’m putting into what i give … right now i gave up trying to get paid for my “work” and mostly volunteer with organizations or do skill trade with people who Appreciate my work and are unable to pay for it with money. However, I do receive a Really nice skill trade and i Really appreciate what they give in exchange.
Sometimes i want to keep giving things to friends and they will neither want nor need what i want to offer … plants, advice, food, assistance … it gets silly … on my part … and then a good friend will remind me that it is not my business to worry about others as i must prioritize myself and my daughter so that we are both taken care of first before i attempt to assist others. I like giving, I like helping others, and i have a ton of info in my head that spills out of my mouth when i chat. However, I need to remember to not lecture people and overload with with random info they are not interested in hearing. Even if it may help them, if they don’t want to hear it, they won’t, and it Won’t help them.

(back to the reading)
Also, there is a change in the wind and when I can look at everything from a distance, hence gaining some perspective, I will have a better understanding of everything. It is best to be poised & ready! In the past I had difficulty finding the truth, then I had trouble aligning myself with the divine timing that was available (bad time management!!). The Future brings difficulty resting or sleeping. Now I am in resonance with soulmate energy as it is time to go and move into the future. I fear not having gone as far as i needed to with my current projects, and hence my reluctance with dropping some. However, I am on my way to meeting and being amongst my people!

personal notes
i have been sleeping very little and or very late … usually a combination of both … as i stay up late catching up to all my work and whatever else is needed to complete my projects … last week i stayed up late dancing and working on choreography for a dance competition that was on February 13 and 14. I didn’t place but it was FUN and a Great experience in general 😀 … this weekend I will be out learning about intuitive reading and new age spirituality.

Soul Mate Confusion
So the night before (or morning of lol) the 18th i had a very restless dream where i met an ex (the same guy who gave me a coffin in that last post) who was now dating someone else and for some reason all three of us kept hanging out. I was glad that the ex was in happy relationship with this new woman (and not interested in him at all) but i didn’t want to constantly be around them, it was Uncomfortable. So this day i did many other readings and the soulmate cards in two different oracle decks kept popping up and i was perplexed and wondering why?? Since i did and confirmed that 1) We are not soul mates 2) We already cut cords on BOTH ends. THEN i did a reading asking if this person was just how my psyche represented my soulmate and i got YES which made me feel SO Relieved!!!

SO the main thing about Soul Mate Confusion i wanted to write here is that our psyche will mix fantasy with reality, past with the murmurs of the future, and create fantastical illusions that although elude to a truth, are not 100% logical/reasonable and may be difficult to understand. Like being in sync with soul mate energy and then see an ex in a dream … Anyone else have had their psyche use images of people from the past to represent certain archetypes (like a soul mate, twin flame or teacher) in a Confusing way in visions and or dreams?