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Moving House : New Site & New Topics

Hello everyone, I have not updated Ocean Blue Psyche in a really long time because I have “rebranded” and decided to focus on a different topic.

My new website is :
Metaphysical Knock Out

That is where I will be posting from now on.

Ocean Blue Psyche is still up for now, but I plan to erase it completely and then migrate my most poignant posts to Metaphysical Knock Out. I didn’t plan on writing a long explanation but it is turning into a lot :

I was too sick to work for an ENTIRE year, when I FINALLY recovered, I was asked Repeatedly to work either for free or trade for things that would NOT pay my bills. People who said they weren’t going to pay me NEVER DID. People telling me that they’l help me find a job but THEY DON’T. People asking for stuff without offering to pay me for it or even help share my work on social media to at least get me noticed. People superficially liking my posts even though they had Absolutely No Interest in what I did, they wanted to “be nice”. The only ONE person who shared my posts was in a competitor market with no possible clientele, so it didn’t help me AT ALL. And then a friend told me something that changed my life “People will pay for what they want. If they don’t want to pay you then you just aren’t ‘good enough’ for the market. Those people who keep complimenting you are lying.” Which I TOTALLY agree with. She was a VERY helpful person with a professional corporate background who analyzed my website, gave me marketing & business advice. Basically, I Never hit my target clientele, nobody needs to be superficial and give me empty compliments or like my crap to “be nice” OK. This is after I spent close to $4,000 on online business classes and business coaching which helped Other people break six figures but DID NOT HELP ME AT ALL. I worked so hard trying to make my holistic business work out that I GOT SICK AGAIN. That combined with a YEAR of medical bills that I paid for Out Of Pocket because holistic care and herbal medicine is NOT included in my below poverty level medical insurance plan. Yeah, I had so little income that I was eligible for all sorts of federal aid like medical. I REFUSED to go back on Food stamps though.

When I graduated from college 3 years ago I went from being a hopeful graduate hoping to get a BASIC office job to an Overly Stressed single mom who was getting blocked on social media for “self promotion” when I tried to promote my classes in order to earn some damn income. I had applied to over 300 jobs and been told REPEATEDLY that I did not have enough experience. I was sleeping so little that I lost Half of my hair, I now have a Natural Asymmetrical hair length style thing because of that. I really don’t know why I was not offered an office job … considering I had friends telling me “Wow you are so talented. Did you go to a school for the gifted?” and some people telling me their company was hiring and they want to hire me but they DON’T. AND I had over 5 years of Retail Sales experience with managers who said I was a great Team worker and could vouch for me. (I was refusing to go back to a mall job because I had a friggin College Degree OK) I will take it as a challenge from the Universe for me to COMPLETELY change and go deep into the past and the unhealthy habits I had learned to live with.

What broke me down the most was when I had to quit everything I loved and enjoyed (the “hobbies”) because it had become so stressful trying to earn ANY form of income from it that I started to HATE those activities and begrudge anyone else who had any inkling of support or success. I had to let go of everything and anything I was proud of …. I pealed off the layers of my persona SO much that I was RAW. PURE RAWNESS. And it was there that I finally found myself … when I asked Spirit for help and why they didn’t give me more answers, Spirit told me that they HAD been talking to me but I was bad at listening. I can’t say that I have completely found myself because I believe that life is a learning process and there is always more to learn about the Universe and our own microcosm/perception of the Self. Plus we grow and change so we find different things each time we “search”, which is both challenging and fun!

It may be difficult to move forward, we may feel swamped or blocked at every turn. However when you take a step back and a couple further away from the chaotic cloud, you will be able to gain the perspective you need to find a path through it all. Yes we can go around, Over or Under the mess, but complete avoidance will get back to us as eventually, when the Universe returns us to the lesson we have been refusing to learn.

Inner strength is not found in Resisting the motion but rather to flow with it and change ourselves in a way which affects the environment. This is the quiet, unseen strength that drives the energetic thread of reality.

What is subtle, unseen and barely noticed, like a player who plays by the rules and breaks the game. Changing it into something else … into a wonderful adventure that is boundless and has no rules.

Have Fun

Sincerely,
Metaphysical Knock Out

(PS Yes I finally got a full time day job and I am working on projects on the side. I also had to take out a personal loan in order to cover all those medical expenses and bills I accrued during the time I was sick. So now I am trying to pay that loan off WITH $50,0000 worth of student loans. In case you are wondering, I did turned off my internet to reduce bills when I was sick.)

If you are still reading, maybe you want to read about what what I learned from my experience. I learned that over-working was bad for both me and my kid. I learned that I drove myself crazy doing too many things at once. I learned that I am an individual and what worked for someone else might not work for me. I learned that I must not drive myself crazy with unrealistic expectations and that I should tell people who are pressuring me with Theirs to Fuck Off. I learned that even though I’m naturally a hard worker who loves to give. I can not give so much that I work myself sick. I MUST Demand that I receive something in Exchange. (I have been taken advantage of enough already) I learned that when I try to run my own business it is best for me to Either go slowly or get help. I learned that when I try too hard on social media I confuse myself with what’s going on. I learned that I need to take care of myself in order to properly advise and care for others. The overworking only disconnected me from the truth within, my own inner guidance and connection with Spirit. I learned that even though others can help to guide me back to my answer, it was ultimately within me. I learned to look within FOR my answers.

FYI I can not give freely anymore because my body will Physically break out into hives and Physically get sick from stress. Do not ever ask me for anything unless you have something of equal value in exchange. If I don’t consider what you have valuable then the exchange is not happening. Go somewhere else.


A question of Faith: Causes, Influences and Advice for the Current Phenomena

There has been a lot of strange phenomena happening both within the natural world and that of human society & egoic creations. Our last Dark Moon coincided with a solar eclipse that was visible across many countries, including the United States (where I live) and the following Full Moon in September directly preceded massive solar flares which expand the visibility of the Aurora Borealis. (You can check the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration Prediction Center website to see where and when the Aurora Borealis will be visible.) And Hurricane Harvey is ravaging the Southern Part of the United States. In additional to these strong natural phenomena, we have a tumultuous social and political environment that is drastically polarizing communities and pushing people out of political non-involvement and into the public arena of activism and outcry. Invisible wars are coming to the surface and political intrigue is now so blatantly obvious that citizens can no longer deny it’s existence. We wonder: Why is this happening? What are the driving forces behind this bizarre phase? Is there are purpose? Is anything we can do about it?

The world has been changing on both a physical and energetic level. The resurfacing of Shamanic connection to spirits and “rediscovery” of the validity within Ancient Holistic forms of medicine such as Meditation, Yoga, Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine and so on has pushed human society into a new phase of Evolutionary Integration. One that expands beyond individual health and wellness and into a global synthesis of humanistic ideas & resources along with the current issues within these areas. We are all pushing forward in our own way, and there is friction with the naturally occurring inertia within human society as change is not easily absorbed or accepted.

Hence, I decided to read on What has manifested, the causes, the influences, and the advice for the current situations in order to help us reflect on our circumstance, prepare for and resolve whatever lies within and around us.

What has been manifested are the goals we were working on, both subconsciously and externally; even if we do not consciously choose to go a certain way, our subconscious guides us with subliminal patterns in choices and actions. People have gradually organized themselves into communities and social groups that align with their own personal beliefs and spiritual understandings. What causes this is disappointment with a seemingly lack of success in the external world as we all work internally to grow ourselves in the new self-help and self-development craze brought on by the New Age Movement. There is real actual growth happening, it just isn’t what we expected. Popular notions of Growth are synonymous with Success in mundane and or superficial terms: physical reward, popularity and external acceptance. But True Growth is often uncomfortable and pits us against learned behavior and norms that no longer apply to the current environment. It challenges us to look into the unknown, question what we know and go beyond what we believe is possible. It can also bring disillusionment with a world that just isn’t as splendorous as it was promised to be. Major Influences come from the resurfacing of the Shadows within humanity as we incessantly push forward with. Modern progress is insatiable in it’s drive to continue onward: to do more, do better, and never stop. As we move forward, we may lose ourselves in the process, but then our shadow resurfaces to face us in moments of loss, confusion and brokenness. This dichotomy doesn’t seem to make sense, so it drives people crazy and pushes them against their own personal wall of ability as they try to work through it all. We must face that which we ignore, that which we dislike, that which lies in us and confuses, irritates or disgusts us. It trips us up when we are charging ahead, and now, it is running with us as we are gradually learning to accept and release it. Suggestions on how to deal with this are to not try to control it and allow the emotions and confusion to saturate our being so that we can confront our truth. This allows us to acknowledge and release what needs to be shed. As we shed that which no longer serves us, we grow. This is painful and may make us act nonsensical, but it also allows us to learn more about ourselves as we open up to the truth within and do not try to hide it under an austere or arbitrary persona. We may feel unfortunate about what is happening but true fortune lies inside our hearts as we let go of our grip on the outside and accept ourselves so wholeheartedly that we feel fortunate just being.

What grounds us is inner work to clear away the past along with what no longer serves us. As we focus on inner work, we can collaborate with others to lessen the external workload, and allow for an inner focus. Giving ourselves time to really and honestly take care for ourselves also allows us the mental, physical, spiritual, and emotional space to recuperate and restore our mind, body & spirit balance, thus allowing us to more fully and willingly engage and collaborate with others.

What crowns us is to not give up or walk away immediately, but work inwardly so that we are able to leave situations when they no longer encourage our growth. And also be grateful for ourselves, love ourselves and care for ourselves, so that we are able to face negative situations with inner trust and optimism. We may get angry and feel unsupported at times, but if we can at least trust in our own abilities and be thankful for what lies within, we can have an inner faith that carries us through the situations to come.

We are always growing, always changing, and always challenged by ourselves and our environment. We are also all connected to the natural Universe, even as our Ego may push us away and make us feel alone in the world. Know that we are not alone, and even if we feel that way, faith in our own human ability to push onward will carry us through. When we can finally trust ourselves, we can gradually learn to trust our environment and be in flow with energy of the Universe. Faith, Trust, Understanding and Love connects us to our inner knowing, our intuitive and psychic insight about ourselves and our environment.

Personally, I have been through a lot, but once I faced my shadow: my fears, my anger, and my disappointments, I was finally able to release and accept myself more wholly than before. This reading helped me understand how and why Faith has been a strong underlying theme for me these past weeks: Whether or not we have Faith in Humanity and Faith in the Universe depends on whether or not we have Faith in Ourselves. So, do you have Faith? In Humanity, yourself, and the Universe?

Cards pictured are the Wooden Tarot by Andrew Liam Swartz and the Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll

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New/Dark Moon Forecast for April 26, 2017 Quitting the Worries and Moving Forwards in our Own Safe Space

We are leaving the worries from the last phase and moving into a new phase of inspiration and dreams.

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We prepare for this by turning our focus inward and taking a graceful pause to work on our elements of our core that have been hidden away in a tower. We let the inner walls crumble as we break through to uncover the shadows and reveal them to the light within and all around us. We allow for the change by focusing on our priorities while letting superfluous elements of life pass us us by. For we are grounded our movement forwards as the work we do within us bring a natural change in the outer world. The external changes are side effects of the work we do inside our shells, our towers, and the secret chambers of our soul.

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The speed and direction of our movement forward is determined by our own inner guidance, which measures up to our personal best and directs us to our personal dreams.

What crowns this phase is keep guard so that we may work on ourselves and grow in a safe place. There is a big difference between excessive worries that distract us from our goal and a general guard that protects us and provides a supportive environment for inner work and movement. So let your inner wisdom speak to you and ease your worries as you focus on priorities and proper self protection.

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Full Moon Forecast 4/10/2017 Wisdom of the Heart Eases our Worries and Strengthens our Integrity

For this upcoming full moon in PST April 10, 2017 at 23:08. What is manifesting is a renewed alliance with our inner guidance, whence we turn inward and trust the Wisdom of the Heart instead of relying on external rules of thought and behavior when trying to logically process or over-rationalize our situation.
What fades is the incessant worry that makes us try to keep all eyes open at all times while we wonder who is watching us, why and what they make of us.
We can prepare for this manifestation by being reliable to ourselves and acting within our integrity and in alignment with our True self, our Higher self, which we connect to through the Wisdom of the Heart.
How to allow the fading of this cycle is to continue to move forward with ourselves and look forward to what the future brings despite of all the upsets and misfortunes that we have faced in our past.
What grounds us is to really face what pains us and feel it in our whole system. Let the pain and sorrow reconnect us to our true self so we can find our true Integrity of being with which to walk forward and lead with in our life.
What crowns us is to let down our guard, and be vulnerable to the world: the pain and pleasure, the happiness and sadness. And then reassess what we are trying to protect ourselves from. Walking out of our protective barriers and letting ourselves be vulnerable allows us to learn and grow. As the pain reconnects us to our true self, it builds inner strength of character, of integrity, and in combination with the willingness to be vulnerable, our learning and strength will show results in the external physical world as we progress with our lives.


Allowing Divine Inspiration to Bring Abundance

Abundance is when we are in sync with the flow of the Universe which brings us what we need and more, nourishing our growth and expansion. It is also something that many people, including myself having some trouble with. So I wanted to do a reading on this and share my insight. I asked about how to be receptive to divine inspiration, how to understand the signs it provides, and then how to allow the flow of abundance to enter our lives. Being in flow is when our actions are aligned with the signs we are given, and also the divine inspiration that moves us forward. Divine inspiration Inspires us with positive, loving feelings, breakthroughs and confidence. Signs are just signals from the Universe that validate our path, they can be as simple as positive feedback from friends, clients, family, or suddenly receiving gifts when we least expect it. Allowing this all to come to us is what I consider the hardest, especially when we are so used to following certain “steps” or “classes” that are supposed to guarantee success and deviating from them can be scary and discouraging.

I liken it to swimming with or parallel to the current of a river instead of against or across/perpendicular to it. We swim with the current, which is our loving partner in life.

Divine InspirationWorld Rx comes from our inner world, it is formed from our thoughts, mindset, feelings, vibration, and spiritual essence. If we are not seeing the results we want in the external world, then it is time to expand and grow within, so that we may connect to Internal Wealth & Abundance. Because our connection to Divine Source is inside of ourselves, not in the external world.
SignsLovers Rx ask us if we are within integrity and harmony with ourselves. If we are able to love and trust ourselves, knowing that we are acting within Integrity, then it is a sign that we are on the right path.
AllowingDeath letting go of all the excessive and superficial things that the Ego is obsessed with holding onto and trusting the Universe to bring us what serves us best. Letting go of the Ego or External identity is like Dying in a sense.

We allow the old shell to die and crumble away so the seed of Abundance we planted can grow. A seed, which we planted within our inner world’s connection to Divine Source and nourished by our Self-Love/Confidence and Integrity. Death of the past Ego, the past Self allows our seed to grow as we move forward.

I also created a Guided Meditation to help us connect to the energy of Golden Prosperity and Abundant Expansion. Where Golden Balanced Prosperity is about being in flow with the Universe so that we have more than enough resources, food, shelter, human & energetic assistance for everything. We can also inspire others with our Prosperity. Excess is different, it is a negative turn that involves the Ego’s attempt to control the flow which leaves us overwhelmed.
My guided meditation encourages us to be in the flow of abundance as it travels through and around us, inspiring all those within our environment.