Category: realization

A question of Faith: Causes, Influences and Advice for the Current Phenomena

There has been a lot of strange phenomena happening both within the natural world and that of human society & egoic creations. Our last Dark Moon coincided with a solar eclipse that was visible across many countries, including the United States (where I live) and the following Full Moon in September directly preceded massive solar flares which expand the visibility of the Aurora Borealis. (You can check the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration Prediction Center website to see where and when the Aurora Borealis will be visible.) And Hurricane Harvey is ravaging the Southern Part of the United States. In additional to these strong natural phenomena, we have a tumultuous social and political environment that is drastically polarizing communities and pushing people out of political non-involvement and into the public arena of activism and outcry. Invisible wars are coming to the surface and political intrigue is now so blatantly obvious that citizens can no longer deny it’s existence. We wonder: Why is this happening? What are the driving forces behind this bizarre phase? Is there are purpose? Is anything we can do about it?

The world has been changing on both a physical and energetic level. The resurfacing of Shamanic connection to spirits and “rediscovery” of the validity within Ancient Holistic forms of medicine such as Meditation, Yoga, Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine and so on has pushed human society into a new phase of Evolutionary Integration. One that expands beyond individual health and wellness and into a global synthesis of humanistic ideas & resources along with the current issues within these areas. We are all pushing forward in our own way, and there is friction with the naturally occurring inertia within human society as change is not easily absorbed or accepted.

Hence, I decided to read on What has manifested, the causes, the influences, and the advice for the current situations in order to help us reflect on our circumstance, prepare for and resolve whatever lies within and around us.

What has been manifested are the goals we were working on, both subconsciously and externally; even if we do not consciously choose to go a certain way, our subconscious guides us with subliminal patterns in choices and actions. People have gradually organized themselves into communities and social groups that align with their own personal beliefs and spiritual understandings. What causes this is disappointment with a seemingly lack of success in the external world as we all work internally to grow ourselves in the new self-help and self-development craze brought on by the New Age Movement. There is real actual growth happening, it just isn’t what we expected. Popular notions of Growth are synonymous with Success in mundane and or superficial terms: physical reward, popularity and external acceptance. But True Growth is often uncomfortable and pits us against learned behavior and norms that no longer apply to the current environment. It challenges us to look into the unknown, question what we know and go beyond what we believe is possible. It can also bring disillusionment with a world that just isn’t as splendorous as it was promised to be. Major Influences come from the resurfacing of the Shadows within humanity as we incessantly push forward with. Modern progress is insatiable in it’s drive to continue onward: to do more, do better, and never stop. As we move forward, we may lose ourselves in the process, but then our shadow resurfaces to face us in moments of loss, confusion and brokenness. This dichotomy doesn’t seem to make sense, so it drives people crazy and pushes them against their own personal wall of ability as they try to work through it all. We must face that which we ignore, that which we dislike, that which lies in us and confuses, irritates or disgusts us. It trips us up when we are charging ahead, and now, it is running with us as we are gradually learning to accept and release it. Suggestions on how to deal with this are to not try to control it and allow the emotions and confusion to saturate our being so that we can confront our truth. This allows us to acknowledge and release what needs to be shed. As we shed that which no longer serves us, we grow. This is painful and may make us act nonsensical, but it also allows us to learn more about ourselves as we open up to the truth within and do not try to hide it under an austere or arbitrary persona. We may feel unfortunate about what is happening but true fortune lies inside our hearts as we let go of our grip on the outside and accept ourselves so wholeheartedly that we feel fortunate just being.

What grounds us is inner work to clear away the past along with what no longer serves us. As we focus on inner work, we can collaborate with others to lessen the external workload, and allow for an inner focus. Giving ourselves time to really and honestly take care for ourselves also allows us the mental, physical, spiritual, and emotional space to recuperate and restore our mind, body & spirit balance, thus allowing us to more fully and willingly engage and collaborate with others.

What crowns us is to not give up or walk away immediately, but work inwardly so that we are able to leave situations when they no longer encourage our growth. And also be grateful for ourselves, love ourselves and care for ourselves, so that we are able to face negative situations with inner trust and optimism. We may get angry and feel unsupported at times, but if we can at least trust in our own abilities and be thankful for what lies within, we can have an inner faith that carries us through the situations to come.

We are always growing, always changing, and always challenged by ourselves and our environment. We are also all connected to the natural Universe, even as our Ego may push us away and make us feel alone in the world. Know that we are not alone, and even if we feel that way, faith in our own human ability to push onward will carry us through. When we can finally trust ourselves, we can gradually learn to trust our environment and be in flow with energy of the Universe. Faith, Trust, Understanding and Love connects us to our inner knowing, our intuitive and psychic insight about ourselves and our environment.

Personally, I have been through a lot, but once I faced my shadow: my fears, my anger, and my disappointments, I was finally able to release and accept myself more wholly than before. This reading helped me understand how and why Faith has been a strong underlying theme for me these past weeks: Whether or not we have Faith in Humanity and Faith in the Universe depends on whether or not we have Faith in Ourselves. So, do you have Faith? In Humanity, yourself, and the Universe?

Cards pictured are the Wooden Tarot by Andrew Liam Swartz and the Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll

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Reconnection & Recalibration

Swimming in the waves this Sunday allow me to cleanse myself and reconnected with the microcosm within myself as I let the worries and frustrations of the past go. Floating amongst the waves and letting the cold ocean water rinse off all energetic influences and slosh me around in waves allowed me to surrender my fears and anxieties. As my heart fast with the excitement and of being in moving water and felt it’s strength all around me, I exuded all the pent up negativity that had been piling up. I let myself acknowledge my vulnerability amidst the sloshing waves, as the heavily salted water went in my mouth, my eyes, my nose, my throat, drawing out all the energetic impurities I had accumulated this past cycle. With the release of clogged energy, emotions, fears, and worries, I was finally able to open up to reconnect with the world. I swam till my legs were too tired to run on land against the tug of the withdrawing tide, so I waited until the waves became smaller and gently flowed onto the beach. As I stepped back onto land, tired out from expulsion of clogged energy, vulnerability and anxiety, I was ready to relax and take in the day.

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In accordance with the message I received from Spirit, this Memorial Day weekend I spent time with friends and family, celebrating this life to honor the dead and all the blood, sweat and tears they shed to make this it possible for us to enjoy what we have. I thank Spirit for their message to rejoice and celebrate Together, sharing our joyful energy and embracing the vibrance of the day. Even though it was cast over and cold, we enjoyed ourselves in this relaxing adventure.

I came home from the beach relaxed and Energized! The perfect combination to start off the week! It also recalibrated my cycle and got me to an earlier sleep schedule which helps me prepare for early appointments later this week.

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On Monday night I went through a mechanical purge of the unhelpful past habit of burning out online working on projects till I was too tired to stay awake and then could not fall asleep at all due to nerves so I stayed up working on some Manifestation homework and finally went to bed at 6am when I REALLY was too tired and passed out as soon as I laid down.

Today, the day after the purge, I am DONE with my unhelpful habits of the past and ready to begin a new cycle! Centered, rejuvenated and cleansed by this weekend!

I will no longer desperately apply to projects and job openings that “look good” I Know that I have work, am completing work, and have enough financially to keep me going. I will focus on my self-development, my classes (self development & business), really learn from my coaching sessions, and Clean Up!


Facing Frustrations and Letting Go to Grow

(cards pictured are the Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll)

This past weekend I went through another emotional roller coaster of lows as I was unable to properly launch my Tarot business or my Periscope lecture series, then highs as I refilled myself with hope when I was encouraged by my teachers before and after their Spirit Circle, whence I came up with new ideas to work with, and eventually finished writing my first Ebook. I also remembered some certification courses online that I heard about in some online webinars and had been mildly interested in but had not gotten around to registering for them yet. So, while considering whether or not I should pay a couple hundred dollars for the online certifications for random things, i decided to get some readings at Learning Light before making the purchase. Hearing other people remind me that I already have my plate full and that I haven’t yet figured how to fit everything into my schedule and Complete my projects, then telling them about how I still have not finished these other online class series that I paid for; all of that helped me realized that I have to let some things go so I don’t overload myself and burn out again.

So I decided to forgo buying another load of classes I may never get around to watching and to just Stop shopping when I feel Lack. Instead, I will look inside myself, and clear the shadow that tells me I need more, speak to it and tell it that everything is ok because I have what I need inside of me. I have skills, analytical capabilities, and intuition that will get me through and help me reach my goals.

After deciding that, I pulled three cards, and these are what came out.

Disconnecting from what no longer serves me, cutting away all the excess and superficial layers that only burden me with their weight, so that I can grow out of the shell which confined me before. And finally be able to plant my feet on solid ground, knowing that I am strong and capable of anything I set my mind to.

Today I opened an email where Marie Forleo shares a talk she gave at SuperSoul Session on Oprah, and in it, she reminds us that everything is figure-out-able


When nothing seems to work out and you feel like a complete failure, remember that all is not lost. You have yourself, your body, mind, heart, and intuition.
You can utilize all these to Make things work out.
Let go of the ego’s urge to be perfectionistic
Let go of the ego’s urge to keep all the things that don’t fit into your schedule, and any other trivialities in life
Return to your center, feel and understand what you need. Understand and Know what you need.
Reset your plans and clear up any extraneous subquests that detour away from the final Goal
Set a more Clear path to the go
Asses, Reset, Rest, Reboot, Restart
Grow

Life is a learning experience, we live, we learn, we grow. Even when it feels like we are taking a few steps back, we are still moving forward.


Custom Tarot Card Layout : The Bird in reading on Synthesis / Tying up loose ends

  The Bird is a card layout that i developed for problem solving. It focuses on what is not seen, what is important to know, and what can either help or distract us. I also came up with this catchy poem to help with remembering the layout. This is one of my favorite layouts that i created, and i use it very often when reflecting on any issues at hand.


Myself & The Situation
3 things i don’t see
3 things to know
2 things that help
2 things that don’t
what grounds and crowns me

and i think this looks like a bird, hence the name

The Bird

  • 1 Myself
  • 2 & 3 the Situation
  • 4, 5, 6 Three Thing i Don’t See
  • 7, 8, 9 Three Things To Know
  • 10 & 11 Two Things That Help
  • 12 & 13 Two Things That Don’t
  • 14 what Grounds me
  • 15 what Crowns me

  I used this recently to look into problematic launches that i have been dealing with. For example, this month, i’v been working really hard on trying successfully to gain new dance students. However, despite avid marketing, it completely flopped and all the various people on social media and in real life who had showed interest, actually flaked out. So i went through a massive reset during the week of the Pink April Full Moon and mentally went over all the different websites/projects I have connected to my main site Umbra Solis Lux Lunae as well as my plan to write a book about tarot, then illustrate a series of tarot cards as well as some other abstract art, on top of that i am also getting more into web design and getting ready to organize and start journalling online about my various arts & crafts project, and i want to start new websites on other topics. With all these partially finished projects hanging around, most of them in stasis and many stored away in emotional purgatory, i was wondering how i could tie up loose strings and finalize Everything effectively ending my streak incompletes.

My reading:
The Bird : Synthesis

  I have not yet walked away from what no longer serves me, which disrupts my emotional balance and gets in the way of my learning. My emotions churn within me but do not flow outwards. Hence I must care for myself so that my heart can be open, allowing me to move forward with intent and purpose. What I don’t see is all the hope exists within me, consistently assisting me as i go through everything in life. My fire has turned inward to nurture myself as i recuperate. What I should know is that I don’t see or understand the whole truth of what is happening and I can stop worrying and tackling problems that throw me off my horse. What helps is m obstinate perfectionist carrying me through the spinning wheel of life, causing delays. What does not help is insisting on being strong and invulnerable trapping me in my mental tree/tower, wherein i refuse to come down due to unnecessary fears. The swords i see are created by the mind, the fear and wishes of the ego, driving me away from the ground that is there for me.

  This is not a time to insist on being strong, the Universe is breaking through my shell so that I may turn inward, reconnect with myself, my hidden self, before i move forward … because only after this, will i be able to start anew and build with a good foundation.

  When we don’t listen to the insistence of the Universe, it breaks through our defenses to teach us a lesson. When we are able to embrace the feelings of frustration and pain so that we can turn inward and return to the self. It is from here that our authenticity & integrity may lay the foundation for our development.


Daily Reading and Reflection for March 3, 2016 : Trust Work Transformation

Today was a busy day!

I love using Marcella Kroll‘s Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck!
0302Daily Reading
Today is a day of Focused Work done for the purpose as Tranformation and Beautiful blossoming of my spirit as i Metamorphosize into a new creature, the one representing this next phase of my life, or current phase, when i shed the cocoon of the past. What grounds me is Love, from my surroundings, the divine support of the Universe, encouraging me as i bustle about my day. Ultimately, this day will ease my storm and all that has gathered inside the self and outside, around me.

It was a busy day: preparing for a job interview, meeting people who were taking some of my overgrown plants, and calling to discuss a freelancing appointment. I only had time for physical therapy because a tutoring client cancelled. I am Really thankful i was given this time to do physical therapy since it has been 2 weeks since the last time i worked it. Then right when i was wondering about money, another student schedule a last minute class tomorrow. Thank You Universe! After finishing my physical therapy workout i quickly ate three bags of snacks before rushing over to class. I find out that class is cancelled, but by the grace of the universe i was given a session with Rev. Danielle Marie as compensation (i can’t find her personal web page). This was my first time getting a reading from her and i was very curious since she is the founder of the Temple of Light. I chattered a lot when she first asked me about what i had questions on and my words traveled up and away from me. She brought us back and asked about why i wanted to connect to the 5th dimension. I want to know what to do when i am confused, feeling lost and or lonely and helpless. I want to receive guidance. I want to feel connected to the all that is.

She told me that the guides said my issue was Trust, and as i heard this i listed several external reasons as to why i could not trust the external. Then she brought me back and said that trust is an inner issue relating to the self. Do i trust that i know enough, do i trust that i have done enough, do i trust that i can feel ok with trusting others, do i trust that i can act properly when others do things that hurt us, do i trust that i will be capable of facing the awkward and painful situations in life, do i trust that i will be strong enough to break away from people who are toxic to me, Do I Trust The Universe to give me what i asked for.

Other points she touched on are Quiet Time & Patience: Can i trust, and wait for the Universe to give me what i have been working hard for, and not drop all my work and pick up something else to work on. Can i quiet my mind and patiently wait for the answer i seek to come to me. Am i comfortable with silence

At the end she let me pull a card (this is one of Stewart Pearce‘s decks, don’t remember the exact name)

Benediction

Benediction : blessings of support from the universe

Do i trust that i Deserve them? Do i trust that i am loved and worthy of them, and that they will come to me?

Can we trust ourselves enough to believe that we are Good Enough, that we are Better than Good Enough, that we are Unique to this time & place and that the Universe loves us and sends us love and support.

Can we trust enough to not block out the love, support and guidance?

This calmed my inner storm and i went home eager to cook and eat a healthy meal. While cooking i noticed pressure in my right nasal cavity, a periodic releases of pressure in that area. It could be the weather, something about my body today, or a representation of the clearing going on within me.

When i finish this i will get ready for bed and try this new meditation technique Rev. Danielle Marie also taught me 😀