Category: career

Facing Frustrations and Letting Go to Grow

(cards pictured are the Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll)

This past weekend I went through another emotional roller coaster of lows as I was unable to properly launch my Tarot business or my Periscope lecture series, then highs as I refilled myself with hope when I was encouraged by my teachers before and after their Spirit Circle, whence I came up with new ideas to work with, and eventually finished writing my first Ebook. I also remembered some certification courses online that I heard about in some online webinars and had been mildly interested in but had not gotten around to registering for them yet. So, while considering whether or not I should pay a couple hundred dollars for the online certifications for random things, i decided to get some readings at Learning Light before making the purchase. Hearing other people remind me that I already have my plate full and that I haven’t yet figured how to fit everything into my schedule and Complete my projects, then telling them about how I still have not finished these other online class series that I paid for; all of that helped me realized that I have to let some things go so I don’t overload myself and burn out again.

So I decided to forgo buying another load of classes I may never get around to watching and to just Stop shopping when I feel Lack. Instead, I will look inside myself, and clear the shadow that tells me I need more, speak to it and tell it that everything is ok because I have what I need inside of me. I have skills, analytical capabilities, and intuition that will get me through and help me reach my goals.

After deciding that, I pulled three cards, and these are what came out.

Disconnecting from what no longer serves me, cutting away all the excess and superficial layers that only burden me with their weight, so that I can grow out of the shell which confined me before. And finally be able to plant my feet on solid ground, knowing that I am strong and capable of anything I set my mind to.

Today I opened an email where Marie Forleo shares a talk she gave at SuperSoul Session on Oprah, and in it, she reminds us that everything is figure-out-able


When nothing seems to work out and you feel like a complete failure, remember that all is not lost. You have yourself, your body, mind, heart, and intuition.
You can utilize all these to Make things work out.
Let go of the ego’s urge to be perfectionistic
Let go of the ego’s urge to keep all the things that don’t fit into your schedule, and any other trivialities in life
Return to your center, feel and understand what you need. Understand and Know what you need.
Reset your plans and clear up any extraneous subquests that detour away from the final Goal
Set a more Clear path to the go
Asses, Reset, Rest, Reboot, Restart
Grow

Life is a learning experience, we live, we learn, we grow. Even when it feels like we are taking a few steps back, we are still moving forward.


Giving Tarot Readings and a Lecture on Creative Reflection at The Temple of Light OC

I just signed up to give Tarot & Oracle Card Readings at The Temple of Light in Irvine tomorrow, May 7, between 11am-5pm and I will also be giving a lecture on Creative Reflection at 4pm in their Buddha’s Loft which is upstairs. To see a complete list of lectures, vendors and readers, go to their page for their Healing Fair.

Creative Reflection

Fun DIY journaling techniques to strengthen Intuitive and Analytical skills while deepening out understandings of the self. A fun type of inner work to bring about effects and plans for the outer world.

E-Book of my workshop is in Progress

Here is a map of the lay out of the Temple of Light, I be will giving Tarot & Oracle Card readings in the biggest room, called The Hall of Light at booth 26! At 4pm I will be upstairs in Buddha’s Loft giving my interactive lecture on Creative Reflection. I will bring a table cloth for the floor along with some paper, pencils, markers and scissors. Feel free to bring any other media or mediums with which you wish to create your journal. If you have any questions about online graphics programs or editing software you are welcome to ask and I will tell you what I know.

HHF Floorplan Template


Custom Tarot Card Layout : The Bird in reading on Synthesis / Tying up loose ends

  The Bird is a card layout that i developed for problem solving. It focuses on what is not seen, what is important to know, and what can either help or distract us. I also came up with this catchy poem to help with remembering the layout. This is one of my favorite layouts that i created, and i use it very often when reflecting on any issues at hand.


Myself & The Situation
3 things i don’t see
3 things to know
2 things that help
2 things that don’t
what grounds and crowns me

and i think this looks like a bird, hence the name

The Bird

  • 1 Myself
  • 2 & 3 the Situation
  • 4, 5, 6 Three Thing i Don’t See
  • 7, 8, 9 Three Things To Know
  • 10 & 11 Two Things That Help
  • 12 & 13 Two Things That Don’t
  • 14 what Grounds me
  • 15 what Crowns me

  I used this recently to look into problematic launches that i have been dealing with. For example, this month, i’v been working really hard on trying successfully to gain new dance students. However, despite avid marketing, it completely flopped and all the various people on social media and in real life who had showed interest, actually flaked out. So i went through a massive reset during the week of the Pink April Full Moon and mentally went over all the different websites/projects I have connected to my main site Umbra Solis Lux Lunae as well as my plan to write a book about tarot, then illustrate a series of tarot cards as well as some other abstract art, on top of that i am also getting more into web design and getting ready to organize and start journalling online about my various arts & crafts project, and i want to start new websites on other topics. With all these partially finished projects hanging around, most of them in stasis and many stored away in emotional purgatory, i was wondering how i could tie up loose strings and finalize Everything effectively ending my streak incompletes.

My reading:
The Bird : Synthesis

  I have not yet walked away from what no longer serves me, which disrupts my emotional balance and gets in the way of my learning. My emotions churn within me but do not flow outwards. Hence I must care for myself so that my heart can be open, allowing me to move forward with intent and purpose. What I don’t see is all the hope exists within me, consistently assisting me as i go through everything in life. My fire has turned inward to nurture myself as i recuperate. What I should know is that I don’t see or understand the whole truth of what is happening and I can stop worrying and tackling problems that throw me off my horse. What helps is m obstinate perfectionist carrying me through the spinning wheel of life, causing delays. What does not help is insisting on being strong and invulnerable trapping me in my mental tree/tower, wherein i refuse to come down due to unnecessary fears. The swords i see are created by the mind, the fear and wishes of the ego, driving me away from the ground that is there for me.

  This is not a time to insist on being strong, the Universe is breaking through my shell so that I may turn inward, reconnect with myself, my hidden self, before i move forward … because only after this, will i be able to start anew and build with a good foundation.

  When we don’t listen to the insistence of the Universe, it breaks through our defenses to teach us a lesson. When we are able to embrace the feelings of frustration and pain so that we can turn inward and return to the self. It is from here that our authenticity & integrity may lay the foundation for our development.


Certification Workshop with Marcella Kroll & Readings on Love & Career

This past Sunday i attended Marcella Kroll‘s Sacred Symbols Oracle Training Workshop. It was a very informative, helpful, and interactive class where Marcella explained the story and meaning behind each card, what tarot archetypes or suits it relates to (if any), what it could mean for different questions, such as what might infer yes and what might infer no. She went through all the cards, one by one, and before she moved on to the next card she would ask us if we had any questions, and answer all of them fully. I asked about reversals because I read reversals, which is not common with oracle card use. I actually forgot her explanation and can’t find it in my notes, but I know that she mentioned that she did not read reversals and I think she mentioned that we could see it as blocked energy. If I find something else in my notes I will add it to this entry. After she went through all the cards individually, she recommended some layouts and gave us some exercises to practice reading them with. She told us about the Card of the Day, and 3 Card Draw, she even read one for us so we could see how she interpreted a combination. Then we all did a 4 Card Full Oracle Spread on Career before partnering up and doing a reading for each other.

Here is my Career Full Oracle Spread:
CAREER

It is a pretty sweet spread which says that the Spirits give me their Blessings to pursue whatever career I have chosen. To move forward I need to let go of the stormy drama (stress and anxiety). What I should call in to assist me is drawing upon acceptance and surrender to change, letting the past die so I can move into the next phase of this journey. The outcome is cutting away of everything that no longer serves me.

I tacked on two more cards to see what else Spirit wanted to relay and feel thankful that they urged me to Grow and and reassured me by letting me know that i am Safe.
Career with add ons

When we partnered up, I decided to ask my partner Jessica to read about Love ie Romantic Relationships, I even joked that I had decided to ask her to read about the cheesiest most stereotypical and common question asked. Here is the photo of the spread:
LOVE

I really enjoyed and appreciated her interpretation! She said that Currently I am experiencing firey and short term relationships. I should let go of outdated messages about relationships and the beliefs they created within me. What I can call in the assist with this letting go is Grounding, being centered within myself so that I an know and thus call in what is best for me. The result is Transmutation, an upwards change in my energy and vibration.

Some other subjects that Marcella touched up on was to be Mindful of how we communicate, to speak and act with compassion so that we give the questioner the message they need or would help them the most in their situation. And doing that while remaining honest, and pulling extra cards to help clarify. I found it really interesting that she mentioned this because Debra Hookey has also mentioned this in her Psychic Development classes. That we, as readers, are there to Help others. Marcella also mentioned that since we were not certified/experienced therapists, we should be conscious of when to draw the line and recommend therapy or something else. For example, if someone asked the same question Repeatedly and never learned anything from what we said nor took any of our advice. Many of the readers in the classes I take with Debra Hookey actually have counseling backgrounds, degrees and certifications so the discussion is a little different there. However both teachers have the same message for all us students. To be caring, compassionate, and helpful to the people who trust us enough to ask us for advice.

At the end of class she gave us some cleansing oil so that we could cut cords with whatever attachments may have formed in our class and not take other people’s stuff home with us 😛 It was fragrant and felt very pleasant on the skin. Even though i felt amazingly peaceful and comfortable within her classroom environment, I am thankful that she was considerate enough to prepare this for us. I gratefully accept her teachings & cleansing and proudly show the certificate I earned from taking her workshop!

Sacred Symbols Certification