Category: self help

The Importance of Doing Inner Work to Overcome Stress and Anxiety

After having an anxiety attack I decided to go on Periscope to warn people about the consequences of overworking and burning out. It’s real, and it hurts not only us, but those closest to us. So to counter balance the stress and heal, we do inner work to return to ourselves, our center, and really listen in to what the ego-less inner child, the higher self, the true self desires in our sacred heart.

(btw please excuse me telling trolls that they have a mental disorder and should get therapy. i actually believe therapy is a good thing for everyone from stressed out people to trolls and egomaniac. And if you don’t want to talk to someone you could always try Art Therapy 😀 )

Kelly-Ann Maddox wrote this wonderful article about Recovering from Burnout


Dealing with Projected Anger

So my whole family has anger issues and being around them hurts me. I try to talk to them and all of a sudden they are projecting their personal problems onto the world and being angry about Everything and Yelling at me because I happen to talking about something they want to be angry about. I am used to this from my parents, who don’t believe in resolving their own problems; however, i feel sad that they are ruining my brother’s life by investing ALL their anger into him and make him this explosive bomb that ticks off almost every time i try to converse with him. I should say that i’m glad he’s not so stressed out that he’s threatening to ask his friends to break my arms and legs so i can’t maneuver to his parents’ house anymore. So him just being angry and yelling things Without threatening me is an improvement. I don’t need to get into what my parents like to yell about, i Can say that they are meaner than my brother, just older and less physically threatening.

I am currently trying to work through and absolve all my anger issues and it’s a process that takes time. Reading about just what kind of angry bullshit i have to deal with all throughout my life probably explains why it’s not easy for me to work through the lingering affects it has on me …

Last week i tried to have a simple conversation with my brother about how i like a certain fitness coach and how it seems like a fun job and he started to angrily rant about how he knew people who needed coaches and how he thinks that’s absolutely pathetic because he makes himself stay up all night studying because he has the Will to do so and that if people need support they are wusses who don’t deserve shit or something like that.

It hurt to hear him so angry, it hurt to feel his anger, it felt like emotional daggers cutting into my happiness, my Balanced mental state. It felt like i was being emotionally punched down into a hole. It was difficult for me to not feel like it was my fault for talking about something that happened to upset him. So i came home and did a reading on this to help myself through the moment.

handling anger

I asked: How to handle being hurt by my brother’s anger?

I should hold onto my physical symbol of what i want to manifest, my talisman and grounding myself in this reality of this world, this goal, this possibility, even as a break through has not come yet. What lies at the foundation of my pain is a lack of proper boundaries, I am letting angry people into my energy and allowing them to hurt me, which disconnects me from the love that the universe has for me.

Boundaries around me, and internal safe space within me. All that is sacred, all that is known, in and out, above and below.
With love as the guide for my heart and my soul, my body will follow, the mind will produce, and from this path a dream is induced into physical manifestation.

The Earth and physical reality is there for me, I am blessed. My connection to physical reality allows my blessings to manifest in this realm. Knowing that my friends are there for me can uplift my spirit and carry me above these dense and heavy feelings of hurt. I can reach out to them. In the past i did not properly transmute energy or think clearly, so now there is work for me to do. Right now i release myself from the ego’s projection of jealously that infects my family members and produces this contagious anger. As I am in an environment of healing and receptivity. I am worried about what a lack of meditation does to my plans. However, I should know that my work will pay off and I will have a balanced prosperity.

Spirit is there to guide me, and the physical Earth is here to hold me. I need not escape into fantasy, reality is here, I am here, and I Can Change my Reality.

I used to spend a majority of my day daydreaming as i did my work and lived around anger infested family members. It was how i’d learned to deal with my reality. Escapism is one thing they call it. However, i don’t have to escape reality anymore, and i shouldn’t, i need to remain attached enough to create the reality i want, the reality that is best for me, the reality that is in alignment with my soul purpose. And when I am feeling down in the dumps from external projections of anger, i can reach out to friends for some positive energy to cheer me up.

We, you, I and others don’t have to constantly escape reality in order to cope. We are capable of changing our reality and bringing about our goals. We are also able to reach out to friends for some positive energy input.

Wishing you all a good weekend, Umbra.


Reading on Personal Growth : Going Within to Heal

I like to periodically ask about how I can move forward and Grow. This is the reading I got right before i headed to a class/session with teacher and psychic medium Debora Hookey who along with some other members of the circle, gave me very enlightening messages from my guides. Specifically within my family … with whom i’v had some issues with … My grandfather came through and reminded me to let go of my anger and embrace forgiveness, which ties into another reading i did a few weeks ago on romantic relationships … I must grow and move past my current obstacles before i can move into a healthy partnership.

April Growth

I must ground myself inside, instead of going out to try and connect with the universe. I must be within myself, cultivate awareness of the partnership between myself, my spirit, my body, my mind, and my spirit guides who are linked to source.

within myself
within my body
within the chambers of my heart
within the whirling thoughts of my mindhttp://oceanbluepsyche.com/wp-admin/admin.php?page=jetpack
within the journey of my soul

a song about a Hero plays in the background … I want to be a Hero … and I will be my own Hero in my story

I should reach out to friends when I am in need, instead of powering through and burning out by myself, they are there for me, spirit is there ready to give me messages that can help me move forward as I accept them with gratitude.

I use the Sacred Symbols Oracle cards by Marcella Kroll, for this, and daily energy readings.

A couple weeks ago i wanted to pick up my Halloween Deck again after a break. i really love Wisdom of the Oracle cards so much that i have been using them nonstop and now they are starting to become damaged at the corners. Anyways, i like the halloween deck and am glad that i picked it up for my reading on Romantic Relationships

Love & Forgiveness
Halloween Oracle Deck by Stacey Demarco & illustrated by Jimmy Manton

I call this layout the Cross of the Self

I asked:

  • What I yearn for?
  • What I seek?
  • What to know?
  • Who I am
  • What am I trying to be?

I yearn for a release from fear as I seek something other than love … stability and support that was not present in my past … I need to know that now is the time for Forgiveness to help heal the wounds from the past. I am unaware of my natural luck, and I keep trying to be Strong

After the healing and growth, that is when I will be ready for a fulfilling partnership.

We all try to be strong and face the world, sometimes overlooking the areas where we nee healing and care. We must face the world in order move forward, Spirit reminds us to always come home to the heart and be in touch what our soul wants … hidden behind the fears and wants of ego, and the complexities of the mind, our spirit speaks to us.


Daily Reading and Reflection for March 3, 2016 : Trust Work Transformation

Today was a busy day!

I love using Marcella Kroll‘s Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck!
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Today is a day of Focused Work done for the purpose as Tranformation and Beautiful blossoming of my spirit as i Metamorphosize into a new creature, the one representing this next phase of my life, or current phase, when i shed the cocoon of the past. What grounds me is Love, from my surroundings, the divine support of the Universe, encouraging me as i bustle about my day. Ultimately, this day will ease my storm and all that has gathered inside the self and outside, around me.

It was a busy day: preparing for a job interview, meeting people who were taking some of my overgrown plants, and calling to discuss a freelancing appointment. I only had time for physical therapy because a tutoring client cancelled. I am Really thankful i was given this time to do physical therapy since it has been 2 weeks since the last time i worked it. Then right when i was wondering about money, another student schedule a last minute class tomorrow. Thank You Universe! After finishing my physical therapy workout i quickly ate three bags of snacks before rushing over to class. I find out that class is cancelled, but by the grace of the universe i was given a session with Rev. Danielle Marie as compensation (i can’t find her personal web page). This was my first time getting a reading from her and i was very curious since she is the founder of the Temple of Light. I chattered a lot when she first asked me about what i had questions on and my words traveled up and away from me. She brought us back and asked about why i wanted to connect to the 5th dimension. I want to know what to do when i am confused, feeling lost and or lonely and helpless. I want to receive guidance. I want to feel connected to the all that is.

She told me that the guides said my issue was Trust, and as i heard this i listed several external reasons as to why i could not trust the external. Then she brought me back and said that trust is an inner issue relating to the self. Do i trust that i know enough, do i trust that i have done enough, do i trust that i can feel ok with trusting others, do i trust that i can act properly when others do things that hurt us, do i trust that i will be capable of facing the awkward and painful situations in life, do i trust that i will be strong enough to break away from people who are toxic to me, Do I Trust The Universe to give me what i asked for.

Other points she touched on are Quiet Time & Patience: Can i trust, and wait for the Universe to give me what i have been working hard for, and not drop all my work and pick up something else to work on. Can i quiet my mind and patiently wait for the answer i seek to come to me. Am i comfortable with silence

At the end she let me pull a card (this is one of Stewart Pearce‘s decks, don’t remember the exact name)

Benediction

Benediction : blessings of support from the universe

Do i trust that i Deserve them? Do i trust that i am loved and worthy of them, and that they will come to me?

Can we trust ourselves enough to believe that we are Good Enough, that we are Better than Good Enough, that we are Unique to this time & place and that the Universe loves us and sends us love and support.

Can we trust enough to not block out the love, support and guidance?

This calmed my inner storm and i went home eager to cook and eat a healthy meal. While cooking i noticed pressure in my right nasal cavity, a periodic releases of pressure in that area. It could be the weather, something about my body today, or a representation of the clearing going on within me.

When i finish this i will get ready for bed and try this new meditation technique Rev. Danielle Marie also taught me 😀


Cards!

I finally remembered to go back and finish watching some videos from the Card Reading Magic Intuitive Festival back in October that i’d purchased and other than the fact that i Really enjoyed hearing all those experts talk, i learned about having a birthday card in the poker deck! So i looked it up and well … i’m not a court card 😛 but i’m in the Creatives suite and my daughter is in the same suite as me 😀

i like how Mary K. Greer flat out stated that there has been scientific research done on intuition and that it is as often wrong as right; however, the likelihood of it being correct increases with experience. She compared it to a doctor giving a diagnosis and how a more experienced doctor’s intuition would lead them to diagnose symptoms better than a newbie. She also said that a card reading can be wrong and re-iterated that reading while emotional is not a good idea and will result in a really biased result. I confess that i have read while emotional, i actually found my results very reflective and useful. There are a few instances where i REALLY “changed my destiny” based upon an emotionally charged reading and then regretted jumping to conclusions. So i do recommend a healthy combination of analytical logic and intuition. And ALL well known tarot Teachers recommend meditating before a reading so that you will read with a calm and composed mind. (i’m getting the hang of the meditation part … i use “meditation music” to help and it has been! 😀 ) I am still trying to get the hang of my intuition’s signals … logical analysis is so much easier for me to comprehend. I have had few strong gut reactions to things and i Always act on them and Don’t regret it. So few that i can count them on one hand 😛

On tarot birthday cards … well … my birthday card is a figure in the major arcana i actually have difficulty relating with sometimes … BUT i think my daughter has a Great birthday card! So that makes me super happy.

Also, i’v been talking to all my friends about the concept of Gaslighting which society is finally confronting. It happens mostly to women and children, in which the people around the listener repeatedly tell them to stop “over-reacting”, or being so “emotional”, and other things to keep them Under Control. It is Indirect Manipulation, and there is away to defend yourself against it.
http://everydayfeminism.com/2015/08/things-wish-known-gaslighting/
Main points i get from this: (you should read the article if you are unfamiliar with Gaslighting)

  • Confront the feelings the statements create in you: feel them and release them.
  • Allow yourself to DISAGREE, tell yourself it’s ok. Flat Out DISAGREE and walk away.
  • Avoid more situations where you are around those that gaslight you or flat out don’t like you.
  • Be Strong and Own Your Power.

And for positive pick-me-ups after being gaslighted, i recommend signing up for promotional life coaching or law of attractions classes that tell you all about how awesome you are and how to love yourself and have gratitude for everything, asking for recommendations on life coaches, OR going on youtube and looking up videos on positivity, raising your vibration, or self-love 😛
Therapy also works well when you Really want to get to the bottom of an issue. Make sure you find a good therapist though 🙂 different therapy and communication methods work on different people. We don’t all fit into one mold! (I still recommend using youtube and life coaching promos to find out what works best for you, TED and Mind Valley are great!)