Category: self help

A question of Faith: Causes, Influences and Advice for the Current Phenomena

There has been a lot of strange phenomena happening both within the natural world and that of human society & egoic creations. Our last Dark Moon coincided with a solar eclipse that was visible across many countries, including the United States (where I live) and the following Full Moon in September directly preceded massive solar flares which expand the visibility of the Aurora Borealis. (You can check the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration Prediction Center website to see where and when the Aurora Borealis will be visible.) And Hurricane Harvey is ravaging the Southern Part of the United States. In additional to these strong natural phenomena, we have a tumultuous social and political environment that is drastically polarizing communities and pushing people out of political non-involvement and into the public arena of activism and outcry. Invisible wars are coming to the surface and political intrigue is now so blatantly obvious that citizens can no longer deny it’s existence. We wonder: Why is this happening? What are the driving forces behind this bizarre phase? Is there are purpose? Is anything we can do about it?

The world has been changing on both a physical and energetic level. The resurfacing of Shamanic connection to spirits and “rediscovery” of the validity within Ancient Holistic forms of medicine such as Meditation, Yoga, Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine and so on has pushed human society into a new phase of Evolutionary Integration. One that expands beyond individual health and wellness and into a global synthesis of humanistic ideas & resources along with the current issues within these areas. We are all pushing forward in our own way, and there is friction with the naturally occurring inertia within human society as change is not easily absorbed or accepted.

Hence, I decided to read on What has manifested, the causes, the influences, and the advice for the current situations in order to help us reflect on our circumstance, prepare for and resolve whatever lies within and around us.

What has been manifested are the goals we were working on, both subconsciously and externally; even if we do not consciously choose to go a certain way, our subconscious guides us with subliminal patterns in choices and actions. People have gradually organized themselves into communities and social groups that align with their own personal beliefs and spiritual understandings. What causes this is disappointment with a seemingly lack of success in the external world as we all work internally to grow ourselves in the new self-help and self-development craze brought on by the New Age Movement. There is real actual growth happening, it just isn’t what we expected. Popular notions of Growth are synonymous with Success in mundane and or superficial terms: physical reward, popularity and external acceptance. But True Growth is often uncomfortable and pits us against learned behavior and norms that no longer apply to the current environment. It challenges us to look into the unknown, question what we know and go beyond what we believe is possible. It can also bring disillusionment with a world that just isn’t as splendorous as it was promised to be. Major Influences come from the resurfacing of the Shadows within humanity as we incessantly push forward with. Modern progress is insatiable in it’s drive to continue onward: to do more, do better, and never stop. As we move forward, we may lose ourselves in the process, but then our shadow resurfaces to face us in moments of loss, confusion and brokenness. This dichotomy doesn’t seem to make sense, so it drives people crazy and pushes them against their own personal wall of ability as they try to work through it all. We must face that which we ignore, that which we dislike, that which lies in us and confuses, irritates or disgusts us. It trips us up when we are charging ahead, and now, it is running with us as we are gradually learning to accept and release it. Suggestions on how to deal with this are to not try to control it and allow the emotions and confusion to saturate our being so that we can confront our truth. This allows us to acknowledge and release what needs to be shed. As we shed that which no longer serves us, we grow. This is painful and may make us act nonsensical, but it also allows us to learn more about ourselves as we open up to the truth within and do not try to hide it under an austere or arbitrary persona. We may feel unfortunate about what is happening but true fortune lies inside our hearts as we let go of our grip on the outside and accept ourselves so wholeheartedly that we feel fortunate just being.

What grounds us is inner work to clear away the past along with what no longer serves us. As we focus on inner work, we can collaborate with others to lessen the external workload, and allow for an inner focus. Giving ourselves time to really and honestly take care for ourselves also allows us the mental, physical, spiritual, and emotional space to recuperate and restore our mind, body & spirit balance, thus allowing us to more fully and willingly engage and collaborate with others.

What crowns us is to not give up or walk away immediately, but work inwardly so that we are able to leave situations when they no longer encourage our growth. And also be grateful for ourselves, love ourselves and care for ourselves, so that we are able to face negative situations with inner trust and optimism. We may get angry and feel unsupported at times, but if we can at least trust in our own abilities and be thankful for what lies within, we can have an inner faith that carries us through the situations to come.

We are always growing, always changing, and always challenged by ourselves and our environment. We are also all connected to the natural Universe, even as our Ego may push us away and make us feel alone in the world. Know that we are not alone, and even if we feel that way, faith in our own human ability to push onward will carry us through. When we can finally trust ourselves, we can gradually learn to trust our environment and be in flow with energy of the Universe. Faith, Trust, Understanding and Love connects us to our inner knowing, our intuitive and psychic insight about ourselves and our environment.

Personally, I have been through a lot, but once I faced my shadow: my fears, my anger, and my disappointments, I was finally able to release and accept myself more wholly than before. This reading helped me understand how and why Faith has been a strong underlying theme for me these past weeks: Whether or not we have Faith in Humanity and Faith in the Universe depends on whether or not we have Faith in Ourselves. So, do you have Faith? In Humanity, yourself, and the Universe?

Cards pictured are the Wooden Tarot by Andrew Liam Swartz and the Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll

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The Importance of Doing Inner Work to Overcome Stress and Anxiety

After having an anxiety attack I decided to go on Periscope to warn people about the consequences of overworking and burning out. It’s real, and it hurts not only us, but those closest to us. So to counter balance the stress and heal, we do inner work to return to ourselves, our center, and really listen in to what the ego-less inner child, the higher self, the true self desires in our sacred heart.

(btw please excuse me telling trolls that they have a mental disorder and should get therapy. i actually believe therapy is a good thing for everyone from stressed out people to trolls and egomaniac. And if you don’t want to talk to someone you could always try Art Therapy 😀 )

Kelly-Ann Maddox wrote this wonderful article about Recovering from Burnout


Dealing with Projected Anger

So my whole family has anger issues and being around them hurts me. I try to talk to them and all of a sudden they are projecting their personal problems onto the world and being angry about Everything and Yelling at me because I happen to talking about something they want to be angry about. I am used to this from my parents, who don’t believe in resolving their own problems; however, i feel sad that they are ruining my brother’s life by investing ALL their anger into him and make him this explosive bomb that ticks off almost every time i try to converse with him. I should say that i’m glad he’s not so stressed out that he’s threatening to ask his friends to break my arms and legs so i can’t maneuver to his parents’ house anymore. So him just being angry and yelling things Without threatening me is an improvement. I don’t need to get into what my parents like to yell about, i Can say that they are meaner than my brother, just older and less physically threatening.

I am currently trying to work through and absolve all my anger issues and it’s a process that takes time. Reading about just what kind of angry bullshit i have to deal with all throughout my life probably explains why it’s not easy for me to work through the lingering affects it has on me …

Last week i tried to have a simple conversation with my brother about how i like a certain fitness coach and how it seems like a fun job and he started to angrily rant about how he knew people who needed coaches and how he thinks that’s absolutely pathetic because he makes himself stay up all night studying because he has the Will to do so and that if people need support they are wusses who don’t deserve shit or something like that.

It hurt to hear him so angry, it hurt to feel his anger, it felt like emotional daggers cutting into my happiness, my Balanced mental state. It felt like i was being emotionally punched down into a hole. It was difficult for me to not feel like it was my fault for talking about something that happened to upset him. So i came home and did a reading on this to help myself through the moment.

handling anger

I asked: How to handle being hurt by my brother’s anger?

I should hold onto my physical symbol of what i want to manifest, my talisman and grounding myself in this reality of this world, this goal, this possibility, even as a break through has not come yet. What lies at the foundation of my pain is a lack of proper boundaries, I am letting angry people into my energy and allowing them to hurt me, which disconnects me from the love that the universe has for me.

Boundaries around me, and internal safe space within me. All that is sacred, all that is known, in and out, above and below.
With love as the guide for my heart and my soul, my body will follow, the mind will produce, and from this path a dream is induced into physical manifestation.

The Earth and physical reality is there for me, I am blessed. My connection to physical reality allows my blessings to manifest in this realm. Knowing that my friends are there for me can uplift my spirit and carry me above these dense and heavy feelings of hurt. I can reach out to them. In the past i did not properly transmute energy or think clearly, so now there is work for me to do. Right now i release myself from the ego’s projection of jealously that infects my family members and produces this contagious anger. As I am in an environment of healing and receptivity. I am worried about what a lack of meditation does to my plans. However, I should know that my work will pay off and I will have a balanced prosperity.

Spirit is there to guide me, and the physical Earth is here to hold me. I need not escape into fantasy, reality is here, I am here, and I Can Change my Reality.

I used to spend a majority of my day daydreaming as i did my work and lived around anger infested family members. It was how i’d learned to deal with my reality. Escapism is one thing they call it. However, i don’t have to escape reality anymore, and i shouldn’t, i need to remain attached enough to create the reality i want, the reality that is best for me, the reality that is in alignment with my soul purpose. And when I am feeling down in the dumps from external projections of anger, i can reach out to friends for some positive energy to cheer me up.

We, you, I and others don’t have to constantly escape reality in order to cope. We are capable of changing our reality and bringing about our goals. We are also able to reach out to friends for some positive energy input.

Wishing you all a good weekend, Umbra.


Reading on Personal Growth : Going Within to Heal

I like to periodically ask about how I can move forward and Grow. This is the reading I got right before i headed to a class/session with teacher and psychic medium Debora Hookey who along with some other members of the circle, gave me very enlightening messages from my guides. Specifically within my family … with whom i’v had some issues with … My grandfather came through and reminded me to let go of my anger and embrace forgiveness, which ties into another reading i did a few weeks ago on romantic relationships … I must grow and move past my current obstacles before i can move into a healthy partnership.

April Growth

I must ground myself inside, instead of going out to try and connect with the universe. I must be within myself, cultivate awareness of the partnership between myself, my spirit, my body, my mind, and my spirit guides who are linked to source.

within myself
within my body
within the chambers of my heart
within the whirling thoughts of my mindhttp://oceanbluepsyche.com/wp-admin/admin.php?page=jetpack
within the journey of my soul

a song about a Hero plays in the background … I want to be a Hero … and I will be my own Hero in my story

I should reach out to friends when I am in need, instead of powering through and burning out by myself, they are there for me, spirit is there ready to give me messages that can help me move forward as I accept them with gratitude.

I use the Sacred Symbols Oracle cards by Marcella Kroll, for this, and daily energy readings.

A couple weeks ago i wanted to pick up my Halloween Deck again after a break. i really love Wisdom of the Oracle cards so much that i have been using them nonstop and now they are starting to become damaged at the corners. Anyways, i like the halloween deck and am glad that i picked it up for my reading on Romantic Relationships

Love & Forgiveness
Halloween Oracle Deck by Stacey Demarco & illustrated by Jimmy Manton

I call this layout the Cross of the Self

I asked:

  • What I yearn for?
  • What I seek?
  • What to know?
  • Who I am
  • What am I trying to be?

I yearn for a release from fear as I seek something other than love … stability and support that was not present in my past … I need to know that now is the time for Forgiveness to help heal the wounds from the past. I am unaware of my natural luck, and I keep trying to be Strong

After the healing and growth, that is when I will be ready for a fulfilling partnership.

We all try to be strong and face the world, sometimes overlooking the areas where we nee healing and care. We must face the world in order move forward, Spirit reminds us to always come home to the heart and be in touch what our soul wants … hidden behind the fears and wants of ego, and the complexities of the mind, our spirit speaks to us.


Daily Reading and Reflection for March 3, 2016 : Trust Work Transformation

Today was a busy day!

I love using Marcella Kroll‘s Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck!
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Today is a day of Focused Work done for the purpose as Tranformation and Beautiful blossoming of my spirit as i Metamorphosize into a new creature, the one representing this next phase of my life, or current phase, when i shed the cocoon of the past. What grounds me is Love, from my surroundings, the divine support of the Universe, encouraging me as i bustle about my day. Ultimately, this day will ease my storm and all that has gathered inside the self and outside, around me.

It was a busy day: preparing for a job interview, meeting people who were taking some of my overgrown plants, and calling to discuss a freelancing appointment. I only had time for physical therapy because a tutoring client cancelled. I am Really thankful i was given this time to do physical therapy since it has been 2 weeks since the last time i worked it. Then right when i was wondering about money, another student schedule a last minute class tomorrow. Thank You Universe! After finishing my physical therapy workout i quickly ate three bags of snacks before rushing over to class. I find out that class is cancelled, but by the grace of the universe i was given a session with Rev. Danielle Marie as compensation (i can’t find her personal web page). This was my first time getting a reading from her and i was very curious since she is the founder of the Temple of Light. I chattered a lot when she first asked me about what i had questions on and my words traveled up and away from me. She brought us back and asked about why i wanted to connect to the 5th dimension. I want to know what to do when i am confused, feeling lost and or lonely and helpless. I want to receive guidance. I want to feel connected to the all that is.

She told me that the guides said my issue was Trust, and as i heard this i listed several external reasons as to why i could not trust the external. Then she brought me back and said that trust is an inner issue relating to the self. Do i trust that i know enough, do i trust that i have done enough, do i trust that i can feel ok with trusting others, do i trust that i can act properly when others do things that hurt us, do i trust that i will be capable of facing the awkward and painful situations in life, do i trust that i will be strong enough to break away from people who are toxic to me, Do I Trust The Universe to give me what i asked for.

Other points she touched on are Quiet Time & Patience: Can i trust, and wait for the Universe to give me what i have been working hard for, and not drop all my work and pick up something else to work on. Can i quiet my mind and patiently wait for the answer i seek to come to me. Am i comfortable with silence

At the end she let me pull a card (this is one of Stewart Pearce‘s decks, don’t remember the exact name)

Benediction

Benediction : blessings of support from the universe

Do i trust that i Deserve them? Do i trust that i am loved and worthy of them, and that they will come to me?

Can we trust ourselves enough to believe that we are Good Enough, that we are Better than Good Enough, that we are Unique to this time & place and that the Universe loves us and sends us love and support.

Can we trust enough to not block out the love, support and guidance?

This calmed my inner storm and i went home eager to cook and eat a healthy meal. While cooking i noticed pressure in my right nasal cavity, a periodic releases of pressure in that area. It could be the weather, something about my body today, or a representation of the clearing going on within me.

When i finish this i will get ready for bed and try this new meditation technique Rev. Danielle Marie also taught me 😀