Category: Tarot

a Fire Rimmed Sky right before the Storm : dream interpretation

Last night I dreamed that while traveling with my daughter I noticed the clouds were glowing with a bright red rims, like they were on fire. My thought was “it looks like the sky is rimmed with fire”. It was so beautiful that I wanted to take a photo but was unable to due to the fact that I was driving. Eventually the sky darkened and in the dream it was implied that a big storm was coming. So i asked my daughter if she wanted to shelter at her friends’ (some kid’s she’d been on a playing with) place or my mermaid friends’ place. She told me that she wanted to go to the mermaids’ place so we drove over to their apartment and hung out with the adult mermaid couple.

I decided to use the Voyager Tarot to read on this. I used a customized tarot spread based on a typical three card spread.
Card 1: What is around/about in the dream. XIV Art
Card 2: What is within/beneath the surface of the dream. Woman of Wands : Sensor
Card 3: What does the dream reveal. Inverted Nine of Wands: Integrity
Bottom Card: What Grounds me Man of Crystals : Inventor
Crowning Card: What Crowns me Two of Crystals : Equanimity

reading for the fire rimmed sky dream

The energy around the dream is my creative expression and artistry: the travel, the adventure, the beautiful red sky glowing with fire and drive. What is within the dream is my sensitivity and intuition, knowing from feeling the energy: hence as soon as the sky darkened i knew a storm was coming. What the dream reveals is that i do not have solid foundation which gives my structure integrity, parts of me are wobbly. The Nine of Wands traditionally implies defenses, thus I consider this card to also show that i am letting go of strictness and being more flexible and receptive of what is to come. Instead of forcing myself to weather out the storm I asked my daughter where she’d like to stay and we traveled to my mermaid friends’ place. I felt safer with them than on my own. What grounds me is my inventive personality that is always composing new and innovative solutions to the problems i see: during the dream i was not once “worried”, i just resolved our travel “issues” one by one with ease, everything flowed, and i could easily resolve things that came up. What crowns me is awareness and objectivity, not being distracted by the jumble of confusion and staying clear like a crystal. Whether it be fire in the sky or a coming storm. What is best for me is to stay clear-headed and non-judgemental. Prior to seeing the fire rimmed sky we encountered many different characters as we traveled through RPG-style side quests, my daughter made many new friends who were all different, and we became good friends with a mermaid couple.

I put “fire rimmed sky” in the search bar and Xiuhcoatl came up, a fire serpent and weapon of destruction.

Fire, burning and darting through the sky as the storm surges
We prepare for the coming deluge

Fire, burning, and darting through the sky, as the storm surges
We prepare for the coming deluge

My previous dreams had a lot of water, and now fire is starting to mix in … i am moving from transmutation to transformation.

And I am so tired tonight, on top of caring for hearth and home i have been attending inspirational webinars (and doing self-analysis/reflection) 10-20 hrs a week, using card divination to aid with self reflection and then blogging about everything. Fortunately i have less work hours, which balances out all my “extracurricular” work. Today i went out on a “break” (aka errands that had piled up) with different decks in different locations and layouts in my home. I did come back to finish journaling and interpreting them all. I am also working on new income related business ventures and projects 😀 I have a coach/business partner for one of them. I think of Synchronicity as i recollect how I randomly set up a dinner play date at her place the night of the full moon, right after I had finished a webinar series called “Manifest 5k”. I know and have been told (by intuitive readers) that I work best with external drive. I am going to own up to that aspect of myself and Also find a coach for my intuitive art project.


The Blue: Between Shadow and Light

blue moon
XVIII Moon

Into the blue : is what I think when I see the moon card. What is the blue?
The blue is that which lies between shadow and light. Behinds the rational conscious thoughts we are aware of are the subconscious ones of which we are unaware. The blue is a blend of this subconscious with fantasy. A blend of our personal truth and our personal fantasy. The moon reflects this back to our mind, with it’s gentle glow, allowing the dreams to form. They are neither real nor complete fantasy, but meaningful and symbolic reflection of our inner reality. These dreams can be as confusing as they are revealing about the truth of our inner selves. A duality of fact and fiction wherein one exists as an aspect of the other.

Right Side Up
When we dive into the blue we delve into the dreams produced by our subconscious psyche and attempt to understand it, to strengthen our sensitivity and in feeling more, we attempt to interpret the feelings into knowing. In becoming more sensitive, we feel more and are more easily confused if we can not come to terms with our feelings.

Reverse
Turning away from the blue, rejecting our subconscious dance of fantasy and desire to embrace a rational reality. This leads to a suppression of our inner self, of our sensitive side, but also leads to less confusion. When we look not at the dreams of subconscious fantasy, our reality can be rationalized and make workable sense.

Now, what does the Moon mean to you?


Reading into the New Year! And a review of the past

While spending New Year’s Eve on the mountain, i did a reading using the Nature’s Whispers oracle deck.

new year reading
Nature’s Whispers Oracle Deck by Angela Hartfield Illustrated by Josephine Wall, published by Blue Angel Publishing

On the left side is a review of 2015: showing that a major milestone of 2015 was acceptance of love and allowing it to guide us, which resulted in rejecting romantic love. However, we did move ourselves to higher ground in order to look back on our problems from a better vantage point, allowing us to realize that they aren’t as big as we thought they were. This allowed us to focus on setting clear goals for ourselves and work towards them. What grounded us was a celebration of differences within us, around us, and amongst us. This appreciation allows us to deepen our understanding of the interconnected aspect everything in our lives and allows us to grow.

The right side is a preview of 2016: showing that we will move with and into intuition, as our heart, mind, body and soul are stationed in a perfect setting, we align with the natural flow of the universe and are open to the messages it give us. This perfect setting gives us jitters of endless positivity, wherein we are internally driving to work nonstop, thus overlooking the need to pause and take a break. This lack of recess blocks the supportive flow from the universe and as we charge forward too harshly, we are unable to take the time to notice the help that is offered, and often to busy to offer to help others. A major issue of 2016 is being able to laugh and not take everything so seriously, we will need to pause and relax in order to heal the burning drive with gentle humor that can bring us back to the present, and connect us with our inner self and those around us.

My word for 2016 is Manifestation, where everything will be actualized. All my plans and ideas will take physical form and i will burn with endless artistry. I know i will need to take a break, even when i don’t want to, and i just want to keep working to oblivion …. but i think back to the audio lecture from Arielle Ford that i recently listened to, wherein she had us calm down and connect to our higher self. One belief that i have to let go of, is the thought that everything has to be difficult … overworked and stressful … this habit of over working had ruined my love of dance and made me hate myself for too long. I am gradually letting this go and learning to not drive myself so hard. In 2015, the year of many realizations, i realized that what i needed would come to me when i finally stopped driving myself to the point of exhaustion … After working myself into depression and panic for many years, i Finally proceeded to let it go … taking baby steps at a time … from trying too hard to gradually being less pushy with myself and more selective of how i spent my time … instead of desperately grabbing at everything that falls from the sky, i only reach for what truly matters to me … letting everything else go. When i took a step back, breath, and looked at everything from a better place, i could finally resolve my feelings of anger & frustration, allowing myself to love & appreciate dance again, along with all that which is within myself. This ties into the next question i asked during my meditation: What do i need to do for myself these next few days in order to assist me in manifesting my goals: Rest. I kind of rested today … Kind Of … i started off watching webinars nonstop like usual, then took a break to meditate and say thanks while asking for guidance, i also made cayenne scented almond macaroons and candied walnuts [to share with my parents and siblings today], then i went back to knitting while watching more webinars, and i finished my flexibility work out before i ate dinner, and now i am working on this blog post 🙂 … this is my rest day, where i do what i enjoy and also brush up on what i am backlogged on. I also Finally got around to doing physical therapy yesterday … i was backlogged on that also.

Arielle Ford mentioned two statements that she learned and uses in meditation, and which i really connect with, will be using, and wanted to share:

  • In this moment, I have everything that I need : Taking a moment to say this and believe this will allow us to envision our dream life. As we ask ourselves: If I could do anything I wanted, what would it be? Once we know, we can create a goal and set the process into motion
  • Ask and you shall receive : spirit will offer guidance when we ask for it, they do not intervene without permission because they respect our free will
  • Gratitude
  • Love
  • Appreciation

So for New Years I was up on the mountain with my daughter watching a fire wyrm ski down the snowy slopes. It was the perfect way to ignite the fire of the new year. The next morning i drove to the lake side and walked on the edges of the frozen lake and played with some ice.

Fire & Ice

I also bought new cards! Themed poker cards: I Spy Game for the kiddies to play in the car and Edible Wilderness for foraging fun 😀

poker cards

And why the Nature’s Whispers oracle deck? Because i let my daughter choose which deck she wanted to bring to the mountain and this is the one she chose 🙂 I also brought my Deviant Moon deck which i use for public reading, but i wanted to try out using non-tarot decks more 🙂

Also a note on Reversals which people seem to have “trouble” with and avoid, especially when using “oracle cards”. We can not ignore the shadows and imagine that everything is light hearted and bright. The universe is a combination of light and darkness, and so are we, as individual human microcosms with our own biological and spiritual mini-ecosystems within us, mirroring the cosmos. I read reversals because i accept both light and shadow, both the negative and positive. When i first looked at my 2016 reading i was fearful and afraid that i may be facing a prediction of disempowerment and falling into fragility, but i took time to ponder over it and allow the teachings of the many life coaches and master teachers sink into my mind. I also had the chance to chat with a friend who coincidentally called me the day i’d decided to write this entry. This is not “doom and gloom”, it is a picture of challenges that only serve to make us stronger and help us grow.

And on the confusion regarding what the reversal is supposed to mean, look at it in context with the rest of the spread. What does it seem to say to you ie what would match with the rest of the cards? Look at the images and try to tell a story with them, including the reversed cards? (this latter tip is from a video interview of Mary K. Greer)

I did another reading about what to do to make the most of this next next year, i did not take a photo of this one, but my reading literally stated to “be your best self always” jump into the unknown future with “leap[s] of faith”. We may need to reduce the randomness of our adventures and not go in every single gateway that opens to us, as this would distract us and affect our ability to discern between egotistical whims and the needs of our true inner self. When we stare at the sun, it temporarily blinds us, as a flurry of light burns into our vision, we must calm the self and regroup our focus before we can move forward again. Trusting the universe to be there for us whether we are blind or able to see, take a deep breath, before plunging into the unknown depths of the deep … true darkness is as disorientating as pure light … either extreme will yield the same effect … We have but ourselves and our trust in what is to come.


Cards!

I finally remembered to go back and finish watching some videos from the Card Reading Magic Intuitive Festival back in October that i’d purchased and other than the fact that i Really enjoyed hearing all those experts talk, i learned about having a birthday card in the poker deck! So i looked it up and well … i’m not a court card 😛 but i’m in the Creatives suite and my daughter is in the same suite as me 😀

i like how Mary K. Greer flat out stated that there has been scientific research done on intuition and that it is as often wrong as right; however, the likelihood of it being correct increases with experience. She compared it to a doctor giving a diagnosis and how a more experienced doctor’s intuition would lead them to diagnose symptoms better than a newbie. She also said that a card reading can be wrong and re-iterated that reading while emotional is not a good idea and will result in a really biased result. I confess that i have read while emotional, i actually found my results very reflective and useful. There are a few instances where i REALLY “changed my destiny” based upon an emotionally charged reading and then regretted jumping to conclusions. So i do recommend a healthy combination of analytical logic and intuition. And ALL well known tarot Teachers recommend meditating before a reading so that you will read with a calm and composed mind. (i’m getting the hang of the meditation part … i use “meditation music” to help and it has been! 😀 ) I am still trying to get the hang of my intuition’s signals … logical analysis is so much easier for me to comprehend. I have had few strong gut reactions to things and i Always act on them and Don’t regret it. So few that i can count them on one hand 😛

On tarot birthday cards … well … my birthday card is a figure in the major arcana i actually have difficulty relating with sometimes … BUT i think my daughter has a Great birthday card! So that makes me super happy.

Also, i’v been talking to all my friends about the concept of Gaslighting which society is finally confronting. It happens mostly to women and children, in which the people around the listener repeatedly tell them to stop “over-reacting”, or being so “emotional”, and other things to keep them Under Control. It is Indirect Manipulation, and there is away to defend yourself against it.
http://everydayfeminism.com/2015/08/things-wish-known-gaslighting/
Main points i get from this: (you should read the article if you are unfamiliar with Gaslighting)

  • Confront the feelings the statements create in you: feel them and release them.
  • Allow yourself to DISAGREE, tell yourself it’s ok. Flat Out DISAGREE and walk away.
  • Avoid more situations where you are around those that gaslight you or flat out don’t like you.
  • Be Strong and Own Your Power.

And for positive pick-me-ups after being gaslighted, i recommend signing up for promotional life coaching or law of attractions classes that tell you all about how awesome you are and how to love yourself and have gratitude for everything, asking for recommendations on life coaches, OR going on youtube and looking up videos on positivity, raising your vibration, or self-love 😛
Therapy also works well when you Really want to get to the bottom of an issue. Make sure you find a good therapist though 🙂 different therapy and communication methods work on different people. We don’t all fit into one mold! (I still recommend using youtube and life coaching promos to find out what works best for you, TED and Mind Valley are great!)