My flow hit the Dark/New Moon this week so i decided to do a few readings with the Quantum Tarot deck which i have not picked up in a while.
First I asked if there was anything to be said since i had gone for several months since picking these up again.
Message: All is not lost, I have temporarily broken from my ideals from the disjoint between reality and dreams, but stay strong! The Earth grounds me, the nurturing mother who provides, and what crowns me is a tricky imbalance between giving and receiving. This imbalance is something i have been aiming to break up and resolve, and it is now at the forefront of my mind and will cause more friction … until i resolve it.
Dark/New Moon Spread (i found this somewhere, it is not an original spread of mines)
What is unseen is my release from mental gridlock caused by internal programming, as i have been in a process of healing my psyche, hence all is not lost because I am finally removing removing blindfold. What will begin to show is that I have not entirely left a situation in which i am emotionally attached. What illuminates the dark path is the World showing love and guidance, as i am feeling restricted by perceived limitations, it reminds me that the Universe is unlimited and will be there for me, I don’t have to fight for everything. Myself is represented by the reverse Ace of Wands because … i just experienced a failed launch and now i’m feeling burned out, and nursing my wounded ego. The energy i felt while launching has dissipated and now i don’t feel like trying anymore.
Yes, i launched something i perceived as important yesterday, April 7th, the night of the New Moon. It didn’t do so well and i have been trying to resolve my feelings over it this entire day … after half a day of angsting, i am feeling somewhat better. However, that fire that drove me has diminished to a pulsing ember.
I drove myself Onward even when my flow became heavy and i was so tired that i had to take naps in the middle of the day. And now, i am so tired that i don’t want to go out anymore, i just want to sit at home, finishing projects, cleaning house and tying up new ends.
Thinking of my flow, i decided to do a reading about it! I found this Moon time Spread somewhere a few years ago and i enjoy using this layout 🙂
What i release is the constant changes that spun me topsy turvy, and the system shock that came with it. What i keep is the challenges of day to day life and conflicts that come up while working on achieving goals. What I am receiving is a release from the financial struggle and the sense of material lack as i have been working on retaining a mentality of abundance (and watching tons of webinars on it helps). The outside world may temporarily weaken me and make me feel weak, but when i connect to my inner strength and Trust myself, i will Know that I Am Strong. I provide a network of connections to others that improves group dynamics and makes everyone feel connected. Now, I begin to focus on plans for achieving the goals i have in mind. The lesson i need to learn is to be unapolagetically authentic and own my power, let my fire drives me as i work towards my goal, independent of what opinions others may have of it.
These two weeks have been trying on my body, mind and spirit; it has tested my strength and made me feel weak and powerless. But when i draw within myself and gently kindle my inner flame, it grows and burns stronger and stronger. When it is strong enough to power my heart, my self-confidence and trust in the universe, I charge forward, Knowing that i Am Strong, and I Will Achieve ALL my goals.