My flow hit the Dark/New Moon this week so i decided to do a few readings with the Quantum Tarot deck which i have not picked up in a while.

First I asked if there was anything to be said since i had gone for several months since picking these up again.

What's up?

Message: All is not lost, I have temporarily broken from my ideals from the disjoint between reality and dreams, but stay strong! The Earth grounds me, the nurturing mother who provides, and what crowns me is a tricky imbalance between giving and receiving. This imbalance is something i have been aiming to break up and resolve, and it is now at the forefront of my mind and will cause more friction … until i resolve it.

Dark/New Moon Spread (i found this somewhere, it is not an original spread of mines)
April 2016 Dark Moon
What is unseen is my release from mental gridlock caused by internal programming, as i have been in a process of healing my psyche, hence all is not lost because I am finally removing removing blindfold. What will begin to show is that I have not entirely left a situation in which i am emotionally attached. What illuminates the dark path is the World showing love and guidance, as i am feeling restricted by perceived limitations, it reminds me that the Universe is unlimited and will be there for me, I don’t have to fight for everything. Myself is represented by the reverse Ace of Wands because … i just experienced a failed launch and now i’m feeling burned out, and nursing my wounded ego. The energy i felt while launching has dissipated and now i don’t feel like trying anymore.

Yes, i launched something i perceived as important yesterday, April 7th, the night of the New Moon. It didn’t do so well and i have been trying to resolve my feelings over it this entire day … after half a day of angsting, i am feeling somewhat better. However, that fire that drove me has diminished to a pulsing ember.

I drove myself Onward even when my flow became heavy and i was so tired that i had to take naps in the middle of the day. And now, i am so tired that i don’t want to go out anymore, i just want to sit at home, finishing projects, cleaning house and tying up new ends.

Thinking of my flow, i decided to do a reading about it! I found this Moon time Spread somewhere a few years ago and i enjoy using this layout 🙂

April Dark Moon Flow 2016

What i release is the constant changes that spun me topsy turvy, and the system shock that came with it. What i keep is the challenges of day to day life and conflicts that come up while working on achieving goals. What I am receiving is a release from the financial struggle and the sense of material lack as i have been working on retaining a mentality of abundance (and watching tons of webinars on it helps). The outside world may temporarily weaken me and make me feel weak, but when i connect to my inner strength and Trust myself, i will Know that I Am Strong. I provide a network of connections to others that improves group dynamics and makes everyone feel connected. Now, I begin to focus on plans for achieving the goals i have in mind. The lesson i need to learn is to be unapolagetically authentic and own my power, let my fire drives me as i work towards my goal, independent of what opinions others may have of it.

These two weeks have been trying on my body, mind and spirit; it has tested my strength and made me feel weak and powerless. But when i draw within myself and gently kindle my inner flame, it grows and burns stronger and stronger. When it is strong enough to power my heart, my self-confidence and trust in the universe, I charge forward, Knowing that i Am Strong, and I Will Achieve ALL my goals.