I didn’t used to pay any attention to Mercury Retrograde, but lately i’v noticed that it Does affect me, and Heavily.
Last night, I dreamed of traveling in a subway train to this outdoors woodsy type place to take part of a challenge, which was to live in this area for a week. I walked around absorbing the sights, sounds and feelings of the environment, while also observing the temporary dwellings of other challengers. The little old lady had built a cute little cottage, it was a red cherry wood color with a deep red varnish and had cute mat teal green wooden board type shingles, there were cute decorative shutters with flowers carved in the wood and maybe a pet (i don’t remember too clearly). According to the dream logic, it was the size of a “tiny house”, which was the size of a dumpster. The last guy i had been with was also there, and he had brought a coffin to serve as his tent. This coffin was the size of a car, had the look and feel of plywood from the hardware store, and it’s lid lifted up and stayed in place like the lid over the body of a grand piano. In the dream i thought about how it was a good structure to stand against the rain and asked him if he’d gotten that from the nearby town, to which he replied yes, and that town was 8 hrs away from here. I continued walking around observing the ground, seeing the damp leaves and feeling the moist over cast weather. Very blue gray with damp red fallen leaves on the ground. As night fell, I needed a place to stay since I had not made or brought my own dwelling, so I texted The guy and he replied with a message telling me to not bother him because he was spending the night in town. It was implied in the dream that i had permission to stay in his coffin, which i did for the rest of the challenge week, and The guy was never there as he was spending every night in town. I thought of how it would be nice for him to hold me as i rested but i also thought of how he most likely had a new girlfriend by now, even though i’d never asked him (both in real life and in the dream).
During the week the rain started Pouring and everyone in this area decided to gather in the subway station to celebrate. We all danced in a damp subway station with water logged cement floors, with some dancers flying up into the air.
At the end of the challenge, i was declared the winner of the challenge because i’d spent the entire week camping out in The guy’s coffin while other people either weren’t there (like The guy) or had their structure washed away by the rain (The little old lady).
Staying in the coffin of a long gone lover, wishing to be held again. Within this hiding place i rest my flame and take a break from the burning. I tend to myself so that the torrent of rain will not wash me away like everyone else.
Fresh rain is clearing, cleansing and to be celebrated! We let the water wash us, yet are careful to not be swept up and away by the current.
I rest as i shed my skin and grow
(photo of coffin here that i got online because pictures look nice in blog posts and i didn’t want to draw a coffin last minute. if anyone has better ideas on where and how to get random stock images like this, let me know 🙂 i am going to get better at looking for stock images as i write more)
During this Mercury Retrograde, i started with going back to a hobby i had quit, then started a side income idea i had given up on, and now i dream of the last guy.
As i type this i realize that my dreams are in sequence with each other, first i fight with myself and my shadow, then Anubis brings me to the shadow realm, and last night i rested in the coffin of a long gone lover.